So odd. I used to get excited for weekends with nothing on our calendar. Now, I look at them with dread.
Today is a perfect example. Normally, I would be very excited for a night just sitting with Marci at home, eating dinner and watching TV on the couch. Now, I wish we had something to do, so we could be occupied.
Now every event, even TV shows or IU games, is just something that will take up a few hours and hopefully make the day go by faster. Everything just seems like a diversion. I really hope at some point I can enjoy doing anything again. Because right now, I look at everything as something that will take up time and keep my mind occupied for that period.
I am however going to write a letter to myself in the future and not open it until next Leap Year Day in 2016. I think that might provide some help, almost like a way for me to jump 4 years into the future without having a time machine or DeLorean.
- Scott